House Arrest

I have been on house arrest now for about three months for a probation violation. Being forced to stay at home is not the hard part. What's really draining me is the financial cost of all this. I'm forced to pay $40 a week for fees and have to show up for drug tests twice a week and occasionaly have to do a work detail. It costs me about $80 a week in gas and fees just to be on this program. For three months I've spent about $1000 so I can wear an ankle bracelet. With this money I could be paying rent, which I can't afford right now, which is forcing me to stay at home with my parents. I was promised three months of food stamps when I got out of jail but only received two months worth. Although I have a new job, I still can't afford some of the basic necessities and rely on my parents for help. So really it is my parents who are being punished the most, but they would rather pay for me to be here rather than back in jail. So far I have not been convicted of any crime except for violation of probation for picking up new charges (destruction of property, which was in accident) and I even turned myself in.
There are certain things about being in jail and on an ankle bracelet that bring on symptoms of PTSD such as the loud banging noises in the cells, the green uniforms the CO's wear, the military style work ethic of CO's and police, the inmates who have told me they are not much different than al Qaeda in terms of their mentality, the idea that I'm always being watched, the weapons always holstered on the police at work details which are very similar to work details in the military. These things aren't considered or even known by the judge, attorneys, CO's and other law enforcement officers. I have written to Governor Bill Richardson about this via e-mail and sent a letter to Congresswoman Heather Wilson, but did not get much of a response. Wilson did write back but she basically said she can't do anything because it is a judicial issue not a legislative issue. I have told my attorney about the special court they have in Buffalo, New York that deal only with veterans, but have not heard anything else about this and don't see New Mexico officials taking any interest in this program. I am completely frustrated with the system and have lost all faith in ever receiving true justice in this situation. I've done three months in jail and three months on house arrest while others are being let off with much lighter sentences for bigger crimes. I don't feel like I've been treated fairly and am upset at my own government for implementing a hypocritical zero tolerance policy that only applies to those who can't afford to pay their way out of the system. The mayor of Albuquerque was even reported to have been in a hit and run accident without every being charged with a crime while I am facing a felony charge for an accident involving a snowmobile and a tree where I stayed around to try and settle the problem. The mayor of Springer was also let off with a slap on the wrist last year after getting in a bar brawl and only receiving unsupervised probation as his punishment. I guess it's okay to beat people up but its not okay to get in an accident. I can't wait to get off probation so I can leave this state!